Feeling Small

This week has been a very interesting week. It's February in Missoula which means that the restless bug hits really fast. Anywhere but here is a good place to be. I get feeling that way often on the cold dreary days of winter--I just didn't expect it to hit so soon after all my recent running around.


I have been reflecting on life a lot lately and decided to make some changes--so in the past month I have updated my wardrobe and my resume. I really like the feeling of excitement of doing something new....There is also a fear of leaving the comfortable and safe. But I guess that is what a leap of faith is--knowing that God will be there no matter what and moving in a direction to better my service to Him.

I have also had to deal with some stuff about myself I do not like. I hate that. It leaves me feeling so small and tiny. You know--that knot in the pit of your stomach that doesn't leave. I just want to hide away from the world. Find my bed and not come out till spring. I know we don't grow unless we go through growing pains but Ouch they hurt!

So for today I'm going to go curl up in God's lap and have a good cry. There is a Twila Paris song that talks about the warrior is a child. It really fits today. Today I am a child...Tomorrow I'll be the warrior. The lyrics are listed below:

Lately I’ve been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I’m amazing
I’m strong beyond my years
But they don’t see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

[CHORUS]They don’t know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because his armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I’m amazing
I never face retreat
But they don’t see the enemies
That lay me at his feet

2008 A Dream Come True

Hello Everyone! Boy it has been a while since I've posted. Life...it gets so busy sometimes! The amazing thing is that when you go to record Life some times it sounds so boring.


Anyway here we are in 2008. As usual I have big goals set for myself. But before I share those, I want to reflect on a moment where a dream came true.....


Molly has waited patiently for the man of her life. Molly has always dreamed of having a husband and a home of her own and on January 26 her dream began as she married Hein Pham. I was truely honored to be able to go and watch this blessed event. It was one that has been prayed about for a very long time. I am so excited for her and can't wait to see what God does with their life! I love you, Molly!